My Curse

"No, I'm not color-blind. I know the world is black and white." -John Mayer, Stop This Train

Remember our younger years? Back when the only rules were to share your toys, don't hit anyone, and say you're sorry when you hurt someone's feelings. Don't you wish it was still that simple? Somehow, I feel like we could apply those same rules to our lives now and they would be just as effective. 

I've never understood the concept of "the benefit of the doubt." Just like JM said (or sang) above, the world is black and white. A lot of people would call me a pessimist. I like to say I'm just a realist. I have an issue getting past someone or something's face value. In retrospect, I'd hate for someone to see me that way.


My curse: In the most sentimental and memorable moments of my life, I can never muster the courage to say what my heart is screaming. There are innumerable "I love you's" that I've swallowed, afraid of... I don't even know what. At the time I told myself that it was the phrase I couldn't let myself overuse. Now I wish I had. There is no worse feeling than that of regret, but there is restoration...

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A Psalm of David. 

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 

He makes me lie down in green pastures. 

He leads me beside still waters. 

He restores my soul.