Sometimes There's Nowhere to Hide

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I'll miss you everyday.

¹⁴ “Because he loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him;
   I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
¹⁵ He will call on me, and I will answer him;
   I will be with him in trouble,
   I will deliver him and honor him.
¹⁶ With long life I will satisfy him
   and show him my salvation.”

Excerpt from Psalm 91

"The Soldier's Psalm"

"We only part to meet again."

The above quote was written by an English poet, John Gay. 


Being optimistic isn't really my cup of tea. I call myself a realist, you call me a pessimist. I see things at face value, in black and white, and then I criticize to the very core until there's nothing left but brick dust. I don't omit myself from that same judgment either.


I've been a really [shitty] bad friend to some of the best people, and it took having to say goodbye to someone very special to wake me up. I've never known how to say goodbye. It's all a new experience for me. I don't like it.


Right now I'm in a little bit of denial. I still feel like he's right down the road sitting on his computer, and I'll see him in a few days, just like I have for the past four years. I'm at a loss for words honestly. Life is all about adjusting to new surroundings, changes, and trials... 


God help me.






"Cast your cares on the LORD and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous be shaken."
Psalm 55:22

Breathing Underwater

It's really funny how life just works itself out sometimes. It makes you believe in guardian angels a little more than before. It is also as equally remarkable the way something so far away can feel parallel to your soul. A simple word from the heart can outweigh deceitful slurs any day. I don't want to be the fool that falls in over my head without my water wings. I want to be the brave spirit that dives in head first and lets the warm water surpass me. There is no better feeling than that of letting go. Whether it be letting go of pain, stress, worry, or letting go of your heart. Letting go of the iron clad chains around your soul that are hindering you from flying. Break free and soar on wings on eagles. Bridge the distances that you long to abbreviate. Tell someone what you are thinking. Take a leap of faith. 

We'll Call These the "Good Old Days"

A cool breeze floats through the air as the September sun sets adjacent to the slightly browned grass, marked with bright white paint. Shouts radiate from the openness between the concrete bleachers. The bleachers get restless as people settle. Suddenly cheers are coming from the hearts of every Eagle fan as metal cleats scatter across the stairs. A group of uniformed boys, soon men, shuffle down to the field into a manic huddle. Suddenly trumpets blast over the stadium as the team runs through a paper banner. The band begins to cheerfully play the Alma Mater. It's time for Friday Night Football.

Last night my high school's football team played against a team from a neighboring state. We took the field, our record, 3-1. The other team 5-0. It was going to be a hard fought battle, but it was our home to lose, and that just wasn't in the cards. The crowd was ecstatic from the first minutes- something I'd never seen in my years of attending my high school's football games. Resounding "boos" flooded the field following bad calls, chants and cheers after unbelievable plays. 

Check the score board. We're winning 21-20. There are two minutes left in the 4th quarter. This is our home and we will protect it. The star player goes down. The entire crowd sits on pins and needles praying that he gets up. Minutes that feel like hours go by. Officials and coaches surround him. Suddenly, he sits up. The crowd is on their feet! YES! This is our night to shine. Suddenly things take a turn for the worst and the score board now reads 21-28. The Eagles attempt to fight their way back down the field in the remaining 6 seconds. Everyone is praying for a miracle. Tonight wasn't our night. Heads hang low as the other team celebrates.

You can't win 'em all, right? Same is true in love and life. Don't let the little losses along the way get you down. Every trial we face in our lives makes us that much stronger and wiser. 

Watch out, we're coming for your home next time.

They are not all saints who use holy water. ~English Proverb

Hey you. Yeah, you. Look at me. I'm talking to you, you little snake. Take the mask off. You are not fooling anyone but yourself. I'm not going to let you get away with your selfish arrogance much longer. I'm downright disgusted. Forgive me for being blunt. They say you catch more flies with honey than vinegar. Well, I like to believe I'm a step up from flies, so get away from me. I don't need your succubus of lies and deceit. I'm especially sick of that smug look on your face. Call me out again, I dare you. This is a peaceful place, a sanctuary... and you're tainting it. Oh, excuse me, I forgot, you're righteous and I'm nothing but pond scum, right? Ha. Ha. Ha. That's me laughing at you. Oh, here's an idea! Look in the mirror, princess. Tell me you don't see two faces looking back at you. You won't see me around for a while. Enjoy it. The worst wars are those not waged with violence. You've got it coming, sweetheart... but it won't be from me. I'm just going to watch as your life takes its course. The tables will turn; they always do.

"Vengeance is mine," says the Lord.

Romans 12:19

Why Don't You Stay?

I am not ashamed to say I am a music junkie. Preferably anything from the 60s to the 80s will do. When I hear a song and I can swear that it was written about me, that's when I deem it "good music." I stumbled across this song today and it absolutely blew me away. Enjoy.


Glenn Hughes- Why Don't You Stay